Unsung Lullabies Chapter 2

Chapter two of this book is all about your reproductive story. The author says that your story starts while you are still a child. I dont really know about that because I wasnt really a child that played with dolls or played house. I didnt really start thinking about children until I met L. I really never thought about children before then so the shock that this wouldnt happen easily for me/us was hard to live with.

I like when the author write "The clash between your lifelong dreams of parenthood and the daily nightmare of infertility is, in part, what makes infertility so devastating." Even though I didnt play house or dolls, I always just knew I would have children. There didnt know of any other choice because everyone I knew of had children. In my family, women didnt/dont have trouble conceiving until now.

It is in fact a daily nightmare that I live because everything around me (job, house, friends, etc) is planned around the fact that I want to add a child to my family. We have a huge house which is ready for a child and I have a family friendly job that doesnt pay very much but the time off with a child would be great. Today we went to an animal park and they were talking about family memberships. Well thats great except I dont have children for that family membership. Even though it is a nightmare, I have to think beyond that and look at the things that make this bearable. I have a great husband, a great family, a great house, and a job I enjoy among other things.

And the chapter also talks about the husbands reproductive story. It is harder on them because of society's lack of view of this issue from their perspective. I know that L hurts too about our situation but he doesnt showed it as I do and that makes me feel like it doesnt affect him, like he doesnt care.

The author also talks about keeping a journal to help through infertility. I guess this blog will work as my journal for now.

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