Intro and Ch 1

I really havent been around for no good reason. I am thinking that when we took a treatment break that I also took a break from thinking about treatment (as much as you can take a break from thinking). I will try to start posting about non treatment things happening around me.

On the trying to conceive end, I am about to finish the progestrone and hopefully we'll gear up for another cycle. The break was good for us and has brought us to a point where we can go into this month as a stronger team because in the end that is what we are. L and I are a team. Like all teams we have our disagreements and fights, but we are a good team, a strong team and I know that whatever happens we will come out of the other end still together. Hopefully with another team member or two.

On to the book. This week we read the intro and ch 1. The book is well written and its not about the medical jargon of infertility. Its more about the psychological jargon about infertility. I like it. One of the lines that hit me is "When we were going thourgh infertility, there was so little support for what we really needed--a deep understanding of why it hurt the way it did, and a reasurrance, whether we had a baby or not, that we would somehow survive this living hell." I think this is so true. People that have never been through infertility will never really understand it. One can only hope that we have people in our lives that can listen without making comments or giving advice because sometimes all you need is a shoulder to lean on.

Overall I like the fact that the book is written by two couples that have been through infertility. I like that in the intro they write an account from the husbands point of view. I am hoping that they write more about the husbands view further into the book because that is one of the areas that I would like to learn more about.

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Unsung Lullabies

I, along with some other fellow bloggers, am participating in a "book reading". We are all going to read "Unsung Lullabies". Since most of us havent gotten our books yet this post is a starting point on my current situation.

We are currently on a break because we wanted to spend some time with my parents over the holidays and didnt want to deal with medications and the stress of timing and all that. The other reason that we are on a break is because, due to reasons that are to long to explain, my mil, sil, bil, and niece have been living with us for almost 6 months. This has put alot of extra strain on us and on our marriage so we are trying to work through these before picking up treatments again.

On one hand I am frustrated about not currently pursuing treatment but on the other this break from the stress of treatment is good for me and my marriage. This gives us an opportunity to focus on each other and for me to really look at the strength of our relationship. As much as a want a baby, I also want a good strong relationship with my husband. So for me it has been good to get away from the clinic, the shots, the stress, and the let down of our constant disappointments.

So my houseguest are moving out at the end of this month and I think we will probably pick up treatments next month or next cycle.

Part of this book club is to post a link of another readers post so that way we all get to read and comment on each others opinions of the book. So follow the road to: Becoming a Different Person

Need a laugh?

If you need a laugh tonight tune in to Ame.rica.n I.dol. Its hilarious.

No better way to say it

I am sending you to this post by Just One Bean because it encompasses everything that I would want to say and she says it so well:

Tea and empathy

A late start

Wow my first post in 2008 is kinda late in coming.

Around xmas I was having a hard time with stuff at home and needed to get away for a while, so I went to visit my parents right after xmas and stayed for a week. I didnt take my laptop because I just wanted to get away from everything and everyone. L met me over there and we went on vacation with my parents to a small town in new me.xi.co. It was so nice. We slept, ate, relax and played in the snow.

Then we had to come home.

So far 2008 has not been too good to me:
-my work is going through issues, one of which includes not giving my the expected raise upon completion of my master's degree
-no real sign of ovulation so probably will have to have it jumpstarted
-problems with L and stuff which have us on the brink of separation

Needless to say I really hope that things improve from here on out. Where our ttc journey goes depends on some serious talks we need to have about our future together.