Happiness Challenge

I did The Happiness Challenge this month. My challenge was to play with my camera/photo stuff at least once a week. I think I did pretty good. I really like photography and want to get better at it. I am going to look for a class and continue my challenge for next month along with The Second Challenge

Here are some products of my month.

Barbecue Sauce at Rudys BBQ - Yummy!

The Swamp - Not really swamp but close enough lol
L walking on the boardwalk
Me practicing my portraits. L is my only willing model
Rabbit trying to hide

Cattlemans Restaurant. Cool View!

Chicos Tacos. YUUUMMMYY!!
Our new front door buddy!


The river front

Even giant ugly bugs have friends lol

I need lots and lots of practice lol :)

No Sh!t

We have figured out the answer to our fertility problems:

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/20959452/wid/11915773?gt1=10412

If L had a deep voice we would have offspring.

Blah!

Some people study the stup.idest things. Come on people! Concentrate on the cure for cancer, the cure for infertility, something I give a rats a.ss. about.

Stalled

Its kinda like, reving up your car to start a race and then your car dying.

We are now on hold for another month. I have a cyst on my right ovary. Blah. So now I am on birth control for a month. Then another check on the cyst.

I am bummed out. I was ready to start. I was mentally prepared and now that preparedness has disappeared.

I feel like a deflated balloon. :(

And, we're off!

Its been a while since I have been so happy for a cycle to start. I am excited about being more proactive toward our ultimate goal.

Tomorrow is my baseline ultrasound appointment.

Better but not great

Those were the words out of the nurses mouth. L's sp.er.m analysis came back higher in motility but still a low number of normal heads. His count is fine. His motility increased from 24% to 46%, they still want it to be above 50%. His normal heads is 13%, they really wanted to be above 30%.

So the doc says that all is well to move forward with IUI.

Tomorrow we leave for El Paso. Yay!!!

The Doc & The Plan

Edited because two sets of ears are better than one and L heard some things differently than I did.

We had a good first consult with our new RE, I will call her Dr. ?? (nickname will come to me later). We got a good feeling after meeting with her. I like her because she took the time to tell us our options and explain the pros and cons of the options. She also gave us hope without promising us the world. I think it was a successful appointment.

The clinic is a nice place. There was no one there but us so its very quiet. Like I told my inlaws, this is not a happy place, nobody wants to be there and everyone wishes they were somewhere else.

The one odd/cool thing was that they took our picture for our file. I guess so they can learn our faces or something. Weird.

So now the plan:
*TSH bloodwork - NORMAL
*Semen Analysis -Schedules for 9/13
*Metformin 1500 mg extended release - CHECK
*Provera to induce cycle - CHECK
*Clomid 100mg + Menopur
*Post Coital Test (this is depending on semen analysis results)
*IUI

If there is not enough response with the clomid + injectables then we will convert the cycle to all injectables.

So then the cost:
*My insurance covers diagnostic appointments so it covered this first appointment. L's insurance should cover his sperm analysis. (L's insurance does not cover his SA)
*We got four vials of menopur so that was nice
*Once my cycle starts -
Cycle Mgmt Fees $795
Medication 100-200
IUI 400
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$1295-1395
*The cost for the post coital test is $72

All in all I am feeling good about our chances. I really really hope it works.

On a funny note: The nurse talked to us first, taking our history and such. She then closes the file, folds her hands, and asks "So what would you like us to help you?".( I really wanted to say "I dont know, how about a car loan?") I actually said "To have a baby". Why else would we be sitting on the other side of the desk lady. This isnt a bank or a car dealership.

*Disclaimer about the cost: I am to the point where I dont really care what it costs. I will take out a loan or use a credit card if I have to. I dont care. My new motto on money is "F*&^ It". We will find money somewhere.
**Double Disclaimer: The above statement can change depending on the number of cycles it takes to conceive or throw in the towel.

Oh yeah if anyone knows the best place to get meds please please let me know. Thanks

ETA: Doc said I must start exercising 30 min 5 days a week!!! Ahhh!!!

Kids Yet?

Yup that stu.pid annoying question again. This time it was to L. I told him to be prepared to answer that question because this particular person always asks it. He should learn to listen to his wife more lol. So the conversation went something like this (I only hear his side);

Person: "Hey you have kids yet?"

L: "No"

Person: "Why not?"

L: "Its not that easy, dude"

Person: "What do you mean its not that easy?" (laughing)

L: "We're having problems!" (aggravated)

Person: "I didnt know that"

Well person now you know. Yes we love kids, we want kids more than anything in this world. This is the first time I have actually heard L admit why we dont have kids yet. Its not something we hide or are ashamed of but its also not something we talk about with just anyone. L has been my rock, putting on a positive face in the light of my negativity. It both hurts and makes me feel better that he would say something like that. It hurts that he even has to say it because he is great daddy material and it makes me feel better because I could tell that he does hurt and is sad over our struggle.

So to sum it all up: WE ARE HAVING PROBLEMS

Busy Weekend

We had a pretty busy interesting weekend. Saturday was "us" day and we spend it at Mi.ch@els , and bowling. Neither of us are very good bowlers but it was fun. Here is one of me with the bright pink bowling ball.
Here is one of my lovely gutter ball!!! lol
Then today we had two parties to go to. One of them was luau theme so here we are.
L and I arent big socializers so these two parties have met our quota for the month! lol Just kidding we enjoyed spending time with our friends and family.

Tomorrow is a day of rest! Then next weekend we have a wedding to attend. Then next monday is our first RE appointment. Then we go see my parents in Texas that weekend. Then we go to Ho.us.ton. at the end of the month. This is all aside from working all week and going to school two nights a week. Jeez now I really do need my day of rest!!!