Christmas Eve Morning

Another Christmas has come and we are still without a baby. This is our 3rd Christmas trying. I hoped and prayed that this would be our year but that didnt work out for us.

And although we do not have a child, I am grateful for what I do have. We are a family. We are a strong family of two and we will continue doing whatever necessary to accept our future. We hope that this future includes a growing family but if it does not then we will be happy in the joy and strength of our family of two.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Here's a shot of our Christmas tree, pre-presents:

Maybe next year?

Trying in 2007 has come to an end for us. Today started cycle day 1. I really think we missed ovulation. I always have a 14 day luteal phase. We did the IUI on thursday when I really think I ovulated on wed. (based on ovulation pains and since period started today).

We are skipping this next month because 1)I really dont want to be doing shots and appts during the holidays and 2)We have plans to go visit my parents in Te.xas.

So now I am going to go on and enjoy my holidays. Tomorrow is my last day of work and then I have a much needed two week vacation. Yay!

Spotting

I started spotting so the bleeding will probably come full flow tomorrow.

Blah!

11dpIUI#2

I am at 11dpIUI#2 and got a stark white pg stick staring back at me this morning. I know that its still early but the cramping over the weekend was pretty bad. So although I am not giving up all hope right now I am slowly accepting that thursday will come with cycle day 1.

For now I am going to enjoy the holidays. I promised Larry that I would not be depressed and sad during Christmas time and I refuse to break that promise.

Letter to Santa

Dear Santa,

This year I have been really really good. The inlaws (mil, sil, bil, and 22 mo old niece) have lived here the last 6 months and I have yet to kill anyone. I have also gone to work more days than not. I have been nice to my brothers and sister. So with that said, this year I would really love a positive pregnancy test. Really just that one thing.

But just in case I dont get the positive test, here is what I would like to see under the tree:
-mammoth crocs, chocolate, size 8
-camera bag
-some books
-some new clothes
-season one of With.out A T.race
-a watch

Anyway, Santa please remember that the positive pregnancy test is all I really really want this year.

Oh and the positive test can be a joined gift for L and me since he has been good this year too.

If it will help my cause I will leave you some really good treats on Christmas Eve.

Thanks Santa! Keep up the hard work!

Love,
Sandra

P.S. Just as a reminder, I really really would like that positive test!

IUI #2 - Done

We had our IUI this morning. Everything went fine other than the doc had a little bit of trouble with the cervic but nothing too bad. The IUI itself did hurt a lot more than last time. We also had some pretty good counts on L's side.

43.7 million
84% motility
grade 3

This is the first time he has ever had a grade this high. The first analysis 2 yrs ago showed a 2. The IUI last month showed a 2.5 and now its at 3. We are excited about the improvement there.

So now its on to the very long wait of the next two weeks.

Which reindeer are you?

L is out of town and I am bored. So here you are:

You Are Dasher

You're an independent minded reindeer who never plays by the rules. Why You're Naughty: That little coup you tried to stage against Santa last year Why You're Nice: You secretly give naughty children presents.

IUI #2 & Rudeness

We are a go for IUI #2 on thursday. There wasnt much action in my ovaries this cycle which I am kinda bummed about. I have an 18 and a 15 on the left and nothing on the right. I think the right ovary missed the wake up call because it produced nothing. Also L is out on a business trip and should come back tomorrow night. Let s a pray for on time departures/arrivals tomorrow lol

On a non infertility subject. Heres a conversation I overheard today:

Cashier: (After seeing name on credit card) You're Chinese?!
Lady: Yea
Cashier: Really?! Are you mixed?!

Now why in the world would you say something like that to somebody.

I guess this is a sore subject for me because people are always asking me about my ethnicity. I speak both english and spanish with no accents and that always seems to throw people off. Heres a sample conversation:

Person: Where did you learn to speak spanish?
Me: Spanish is my first language
Person: Really?!
Me: Yes. I am Mexican
Person: Mexican?
Me: Yes. Mexican. Both my parents are Mexican so that makes me a Mexican born in the US.
Person: Where did you get the red hair?

This is were I either go on a talk about my genetic tree or end the conversation with a sarcastic remark (the latter happens more often)

So there is my rant for the week

Sluggish?

I had another ultrasound and bloodwork yesterday and I wasnt very pleased with what we have. There was very little growth. Basically they are still too small to worth remembering. I was kinda upset about this but when the nurse called me back she said my doctor wasnt worried because my estrogen went up nicely. I was kept on the same dose and go back on monday. And of course this next week is probably when the IUI needs to happen and it also happens to be an extremely busy work week for both of us. We shall see.

So today we spend the day with the Wiggle (our niece). We went shopping at To.ys R. Us and the mall and then we went to Chu.ck E Chee.se, it was crazy. She was really good and other than peeing through the diapers and the pants we had a good day. Tomorrow we are taking her to the park. The funny thing about all this is since we dont have children we arent used to going out and about with one. We had the Wiggle ready heading out the door without a diaperbag or sippy cup or anything. We have alot to learn when hopefully soon the time comes for a child of our own.