Sold

Our house sold!!!Yay!!! Our house sold over the weekend so we have been busy trying to find a place to live since our new house wont be ready for at least 6 weeks. We will be homeless starting in mid Feb. So between the packing, moving stuff to storage, changing address on a gagillion things and making sure we are not homeless, keeping up with our new house and of course work and school things are extremely busy around here.

On the baby making front, I started my cycle today so I will be taking Clomid and Dexasomething soon. I will also have an ultrasound on day 14 to see if and how the clomid worked. This will be my last cycle with my current obgyn so either I am pregnant at the end of this month or making an appointment with the specialist. I am thinking if this cycle is a bust we will wait until we are settled in the new house before going to the specialist. We'll see how it turns out.

Have a great one everyone!

One of The Big Debate

Disclaimer: This is my opinion in my blog. You are free to disagree but only in a nice way.

So I go attend night classes to obtain my MBA. This semester I have a marketing class. The professor is good and really gets the class involved. In todays lecture something was said that most didnt pay attention but I did. We were talking about changing demographics and one of the points was that 'more kids are getting raised by others'. ???. Does that mean what I think it means? Yup the ever debatable issue of working mommies. My sister and I have this discussion all the time. I think its a decision that every family must make looking at whats best for them.

I dont think that sending your baby to daycare means that you are letting someone else raise your kids. I think there are some great working mommies out there as well as some great stay at home mommies.

I will more than likely be a working mommy. Munchkin will go to the child care place at my employers central office. It is top notch as I work for a federally funded early childhood education organization lol. I am completely comfortable with their care. I really like my job and would like to be able to continue at it. Now this might change when we acutaly have a child but this is our opinion at the moment.

If anybody wants to chime in on this great debate, in a respectable way, feel free

Can you see it?

I have a pretty long commute to work every morning, about 45 minutes each way. The good thing about it is that its back country roads so not too much traffic. Along the way I see cows and lots of green pasture. Sometimes even some deer. This morning I turn the corner and this is what I see. (Yes I stopped in the middle of the road to take a picture, there was no traffic) Can you see it?

Its A RAINBOW!!!

P.S. I carry my digital camera in my purse just in case I see something cool. hehehe

Just for Fun

This is me:

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Just for the record, this thing does tell the truth about my moods. Hehehe

This is L:

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Just Chilling

Hey everybody, this is L, Sandra and I are just chilling out and enjoying some down time. The new house is coming along. The second floor is framed and they are getting ready to start on the roof trusses.

Take it easy!

L

Weird

Frances over at Unyielding tagged me. I am supposed to write 6 things that are weird about me. Thanks Frances for my first tag! :)

• I am anal about my socks. All my socks are ankle socks and the lines have to fit perfectly over my toes otherwise it drives me nuts
• I am claustrophobic and cant stand being enclosed. This is one of the reasons I have an open door policy at work lol
• Along with the above is that I dont like big crowds very much. This probably comes from not liking to be touched by strangers lol
• I have a fixation with monkeys. I just love them. My guest bathroom is monkey. I have monkey socks, slippers, blankets, almost anything you can think of.
• My toes look like Vienna Sausages. Long and skinny. Very weird
• I could only think of five and even those arent very good lol
• Edited to Add: I thought of another one: I do not like edges of food. For example, I only eat the brownies in the middle of the pan, rarely eat the crust of pizza :)

I am supposed to tag five people. So you gals are it:

• Lisa at In Due Time
• Jody at Just Keep Swimming
• Larissa at The Waiting Womb

Okay I could only think of three lol.

What she said...

Ditto to what Frances says in this post:

http://unyielding.blogspot.com/2007/01/yah-what-she-said.html

House

Here are some pictures of our new house. They are working on the first floor now.

I am freaking out a little because in order to buy the new house we have to sell our current house. Please send us some prayers to help sell our house. Thanks

A Rant

Why cant life be simple? Why are there always decisions to make? Arghhh. I feel like a very selfish person right now. One on hand a want a baby, any which way I can get it. On the other hand I want to be pregnant. I want to feel life grow inside of me. I know in my heart I will love my child the same no matter how it comes to our lives. I dont know what I want.

Over the past few weeks, we have heard some news that have dimmed our hopes on an adoption from Mexico. I knew from the beginning that adopting from there was hard but now I am thinking its almost impossible. It hurts my heart from having to walk away from it but I am starting to understand that my hope there is fruitless. We have not walked away completly. At this moment we have decided to stay on the list and keep hoping until our US paperwork expires. If there is no adoption by then we will very sadly walk away.

We have also decided to seek fertility treatments. I have one more round with my Ob/Gyn and if that doesnt work then we are going to an RE. The selfish part is that I am willing to do whatever it takes for this to work. I never thought I would get to this point but I have. L and I have decided that we will have a health/fertility loan if there gets a time we need it. Our insurance doesnt cover fertility so its all on us.

I finish my rant by saying that life is rather hectic and busy besides this baby business. Work is busy, I start school next week (only 2 classes left after this semester), and I am still going to the gym.

Oh yeah if anyone knows any good books about infertility and such please let me know.

Feel free to leave a message and make me feel special.

Exercise?

I joined the gym a couple days ago and today was the first day I got to go. Hmm...right now about all I can move are my fingers lol its is so depressing but I hope my motivation continues. I am just not happy with the way I look and want to lose 15-20lbs. I am excited to finally get to this. I also hope it helps baby wise. Thats what I think about while panting on the treadmill hahaha :)

Ok gotta go try to move my muscles lol

New Year

A new year, a new beginning. Here are some of my favorite quotes (the ones in blue are my favorite for this year).

If it were not for hopes, the heart would break.
-- Thomas Fuller

Don't lose hope. When it gets darkest the stars come out.
-- Unknown

Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.
-- Pope John XXIII

Everything that is done in the world is done by hope.
-- Martin Luther King, Jr

Dreams do not vanish, so long as people do not abandon them.
-- Unknown

Por muy larga que sea la tormenta, el sol siempre vuelve a brillar entre las nubes.
-- Khalil Gibran

El que la sigue la consigue.
-- Refrán

Nunca desistas de un sueño. Sólo trata de ver las señales que te lleven a él.
-- Paulo Coelho

La huella de un sueño no es menos real que la de una pisada.
-- George Duby

LUCKY '07!!!!

A look back and a look ahead...

As we are getting ready to step into 2007, I want to look back at 2006. There are many many things that happened this year in our lives. We started off the year on a bad foot with bad news at the RE at that point we decided not to pursue fertility treatments. We started paperwork for adoption from Mexico, thinking for a baby by Christmas, unfortunately the process was/is slower than we ever imagined it would be. So the worst thing this year is that there was no baby for us in 2006.

After all this I must say 2006 also had lots of positives. L and I celebrated our 2nd anniversary. Throughtout this whole process of becoming a family of more than two, our relationship has grown stronger. I am forever grateful to have L in my life. I also changed jobs. I love what I do now and hope to grow better at it in the coming year. My sister-in-law gave birth to a beautiful baby girl that is a spoiled rotten and a huge part of our lives.

Here's are our dreams for 2007:

• becoming a family of more than 2 (I keep saying more than 2 just in case God gives us more than one baby this year)
• celebrating our 3rd anniversary
• big celebration for L's 30th birthday
• moving into our new home

I hope and pray that all your dreams come true!!! Lucky '07!!!

Tourists

L and I decided to spend the day as tourists. So into the city we went. We went to the aquarium and the IMAX and the World War II museum. We had an awesome time and made some new friends.


You cant be a tourist in New Orleans without buying beads so here are mine. These are cool Texas A&M beads.
Overall it was a great relaxing day!!!

Relaxing Time

Larry, from now on to be called L, and I are both home this week. I am on holiday break and L took the week off. We are enjoying our time off together relaxing and hanging out. We spend this morning sleeping then the afternoon playing with Laura. I am so super glad and grateful that my sister in law lets us be a huge part of Laura's life. We spoil her rotten :-D. This evening we all took her out to Christmas in the Oaks. Its a hugh display of lights at one of the parks in the city. We go every year. Tonight it was super cold so this is me in my winter gear and photo backpack and hot chocolate.
This is L and me in front of the ponseita (?) tree.
Since some of you might want to know how cold it was I will tell you. It was a freezing 50 degrees lol I know for some of you reading in the north thats long sleeve shirt weather but for us southeners its a pull out your jackets and hats that are worn only a couple times a year lol

Christmas Traditions

We had a great Christmas Day today! We opened our Santa gifts bright and early as we were going to Larry's family later that morning. I must have been really good this year because I got some cool stuff. I got a couple lenses for my camera as well as a new backpack for my camera. Its super cool. In our house we also get to open one gift on Christmas Eve, its a tradition that Larry's mom did when he was a kid so we continue it at our house. The gift is always pj's. So that when you wake up on Christmas morning you have nice pjs in the pictures. These are our pjs this year. I got polar bears and Larry got superman.


This is one of my favorite gifts. Its a snowglobe with a mama and baby monkey. It is so super cool and I absolutely love it!!! Thanks Granny!!!!

An Epiphany

Its the eve of christmas eve today. Christmas is my favorite time of year, I love it. This year has been a little harder. I really thought that this year we would be celebrating with a baby. So as the Christmas cards come in from all of our friends and family, its hard to see their beautiful babies. My heart just aches thinking that that may never be us. So I was getting a little depressed and didnt like it. I am making an effort to be cheerful this holiday season and enjoy it to the fullest. Its not that my heart doesnt ache, its just that while before I tried to ignore it now I am learning to live despite the ache. I think I am doing pretty good.

So I had an epiphany. I had it a couple days ago but have been mulling it over. I have been moping and sad because I had hoped that we would be celebrating Christmas as a family. Obviously we dont have a baby so I kept thinking I was getting the shaft but in reality I am celebrating Christmas as a family. I have come to realize that Larry and I are a family. We are a family of two. We will continue to pray, hope and wish that soon we will be a family of at least three but we will also live our lives very happily as a family of two.

We have also decided that because of the instability and disorganization of the adoption process in Mexico, in 2007 we will be saving our money for infertility treatments. We will continue to monitor our case in Mexico but I am really seeing a long long long wait for that. We have a long way to save but we work hard and we will see what happens.

So in the spirit of Christmas I spend the afternoon in the kitchen coming up with these. I must say they are yuuuummmy!!! (Can you see where I tasted one of each?!)

Almond Chocolate Cookies

Banana Oatmeal Cookies Chocolate Strawberry Thumbprint Cookies

Merry Christmas!!!

Yet another negative

Yep another negative ovulation blood test. It sucks. I really dont understand why my body is not working. The adoption wait is also not going very well. If anyone know anything about the Mexican government is that its extremely complicated. You basically have to know someone somewhere to get anything done. I thought we had that but at this point I am not really sure.

I am trying not to get too sad and depressed over this especially this close to Christmas but it is becoming really hard. I really thought we would have a baby by this point. If I could just know what is in the future for us I could make my peace with it but I guess that would make life too simple.

For now I will cry for a while and then live my life with my wonderful husband and keep hoping. It is also getting harder and harder for me to have faith and to keep praying.

Merry Christmas!

Snow!!!!!!!

We saw snow!!! Okay more like a couple snow flakes but in El Paso thats a big deal. Its super cold here and I am hoping for a few more snowflakes.

Going Away

No not away from the blog but away for the weekend. We are going to go see my parents in Texas. I am so very very excited. We get to go to my favorite restaurants and see my old hangouts lol. I am taking an extra suitcase to bring back some goodies.

Adios!!!!

A new friend

This is our new friend. He hangs out and looks pretty in our front yard. His nose lights up, its cool!

From our home to yours!!!!!!!