An Epiphany

Its the eve of christmas eve today. Christmas is my favorite time of year, I love it. This year has been a little harder. I really thought that this year we would be celebrating with a baby. So as the Christmas cards come in from all of our friends and family, its hard to see their beautiful babies. My heart just aches thinking that that may never be us. So I was getting a little depressed and didnt like it. I am making an effort to be cheerful this holiday season and enjoy it to the fullest. Its not that my heart doesnt ache, its just that while before I tried to ignore it now I am learning to live despite the ache. I think I am doing pretty good.

So I had an epiphany. I had it a couple days ago but have been mulling it over. I have been moping and sad because I had hoped that we would be celebrating Christmas as a family. Obviously we dont have a baby so I kept thinking I was getting the shaft but in reality I am celebrating Christmas as a family. I have come to realize that Larry and I are a family. We are a family of two. We will continue to pray, hope and wish that soon we will be a family of at least three but we will also live our lives very happily as a family of two.

We have also decided that because of the instability and disorganization of the adoption process in Mexico, in 2007 we will be saving our money for infertility treatments. We will continue to monitor our case in Mexico but I am really seeing a long long long wait for that. We have a long way to save but we work hard and we will see what happens.

So in the spirit of Christmas I spend the afternoon in the kitchen coming up with these. I must say they are yuuuummmy!!! (Can you see where I tasted one of each?!)

Almond Chocolate Cookies

Banana Oatmeal Cookies Chocolate Strawberry Thumbprint Cookies

Merry Christmas!!!