A look back and a look ahead...

As we are getting ready to step into 2007, I want to look back at 2006. There are many many things that happened this year in our lives. We started off the year on a bad foot with bad news at the RE at that point we decided not to pursue fertility treatments. We started paperwork for adoption from Mexico, thinking for a baby by Christmas, unfortunately the process was/is slower than we ever imagined it would be. So the worst thing this year is that there was no baby for us in 2006.

After all this I must say 2006 also had lots of positives. L and I celebrated our 2nd anniversary. Throughtout this whole process of becoming a family of more than two, our relationship has grown stronger. I am forever grateful to have L in my life. I also changed jobs. I love what I do now and hope to grow better at it in the coming year. My sister-in-law gave birth to a beautiful baby girl that is a spoiled rotten and a huge part of our lives.

Here's are our dreams for 2007:

• becoming a family of more than 2 (I keep saying more than 2 just in case God gives us more than one baby this year)
• celebrating our 3rd anniversary
• big celebration for L's 30th birthday
• moving into our new home

I hope and pray that all your dreams come true!!! Lucky '07!!!

Tourists

L and I decided to spend the day as tourists. So into the city we went. We went to the aquarium and the IMAX and the World War II museum. We had an awesome time and made some new friends.


You cant be a tourist in New Orleans without buying beads so here are mine. These are cool Texas A&M beads.
Overall it was a great relaxing day!!!

Relaxing Time

Larry, from now on to be called L, and I are both home this week. I am on holiday break and L took the week off. We are enjoying our time off together relaxing and hanging out. We spend this morning sleeping then the afternoon playing with Laura. I am so super glad and grateful that my sister in law lets us be a huge part of Laura's life. We spoil her rotten :-D. This evening we all took her out to Christmas in the Oaks. Its a hugh display of lights at one of the parks in the city. We go every year. Tonight it was super cold so this is me in my winter gear and photo backpack and hot chocolate.
This is L and me in front of the ponseita (?) tree.
Since some of you might want to know how cold it was I will tell you. It was a freezing 50 degrees lol I know for some of you reading in the north thats long sleeve shirt weather but for us southeners its a pull out your jackets and hats that are worn only a couple times a year lol

Christmas Traditions

We had a great Christmas Day today! We opened our Santa gifts bright and early as we were going to Larry's family later that morning. I must have been really good this year because I got some cool stuff. I got a couple lenses for my camera as well as a new backpack for my camera. Its super cool. In our house we also get to open one gift on Christmas Eve, its a tradition that Larry's mom did when he was a kid so we continue it at our house. The gift is always pj's. So that when you wake up on Christmas morning you have nice pjs in the pictures. These are our pjs this year. I got polar bears and Larry got superman.


This is one of my favorite gifts. Its a snowglobe with a mama and baby monkey. It is so super cool and I absolutely love it!!! Thanks Granny!!!!

An Epiphany

Its the eve of christmas eve today. Christmas is my favorite time of year, I love it. This year has been a little harder. I really thought that this year we would be celebrating with a baby. So as the Christmas cards come in from all of our friends and family, its hard to see their beautiful babies. My heart just aches thinking that that may never be us. So I was getting a little depressed and didnt like it. I am making an effort to be cheerful this holiday season and enjoy it to the fullest. Its not that my heart doesnt ache, its just that while before I tried to ignore it now I am learning to live despite the ache. I think I am doing pretty good.

So I had an epiphany. I had it a couple days ago but have been mulling it over. I have been moping and sad because I had hoped that we would be celebrating Christmas as a family. Obviously we dont have a baby so I kept thinking I was getting the shaft but in reality I am celebrating Christmas as a family. I have come to realize that Larry and I are a family. We are a family of two. We will continue to pray, hope and wish that soon we will be a family of at least three but we will also live our lives very happily as a family of two.

We have also decided that because of the instability and disorganization of the adoption process in Mexico, in 2007 we will be saving our money for infertility treatments. We will continue to monitor our case in Mexico but I am really seeing a long long long wait for that. We have a long way to save but we work hard and we will see what happens.

So in the spirit of Christmas I spend the afternoon in the kitchen coming up with these. I must say they are yuuuummmy!!! (Can you see where I tasted one of each?!)

Almond Chocolate Cookies

Banana Oatmeal Cookies Chocolate Strawberry Thumbprint Cookies

Merry Christmas!!!

Yet another negative

Yep another negative ovulation blood test. It sucks. I really dont understand why my body is not working. The adoption wait is also not going very well. If anyone know anything about the Mexican government is that its extremely complicated. You basically have to know someone somewhere to get anything done. I thought we had that but at this point I am not really sure.

I am trying not to get too sad and depressed over this especially this close to Christmas but it is becoming really hard. I really thought we would have a baby by this point. If I could just know what is in the future for us I could make my peace with it but I guess that would make life too simple.

For now I will cry for a while and then live my life with my wonderful husband and keep hoping. It is also getting harder and harder for me to have faith and to keep praying.

Merry Christmas!

Snow!!!!!!!

We saw snow!!! Okay more like a couple snow flakes but in El Paso thats a big deal. Its super cold here and I am hoping for a few more snowflakes.

Going Away

No not away from the blog but away for the weekend. We are going to go see my parents in Texas. I am so very very excited. We get to go to my favorite restaurants and see my old hangouts lol. I am taking an extra suitcase to bring back some goodies.

Adios!!!!

A new friend

This is our new friend. He hangs out and looks pretty in our front yard. His nose lights up, its cool!

From our home to yours!!!!!!!

Christmas Tree

We put up our Christmas tree a couple of days ago. I make sure to turn on the lights every night to enjoy it.

It is actually cold in Louisiana today so we turned on a fire. We get to use our first place maybe 2 or 3 times a year. As I type, I am sitting on the couch, watching tv with the fire going. Great way to spend the evening.

"It's beginning to look a lot like ChristmasEv'rywhere you go; Take a look in the five-and-ten, glistening once again With candy canes and silver lanes aglow...."

Its beginning to look alot like Christmas!!!!

One of our Christmas traditions is to pick out a new ornament that represents something especial to us for the year. Last year we did a new home one and so on. This year we chose this one. It is hilarious, we love it. First of all we are geeks. As I type we are laying in bed watching tv and playing on our laptops. We have been known to play games online against each other while sitting on the couch lol. Secondly the two characters on the screen sing and are absolutely hilarious. We turned heads at Hallmark because we were laughing to hard. If you are in Hallmark check it out.

This one we got for the munchkin. Its a very cute winnie the pooh.
These are my new monkey christmas pj pants. They are super comfy and I love them.
Our Thanksgiving was pretty good. We spend it with Larry's family. We had tons and tons of food. We had a good time. I did have a rough moment because there were a couple of babies there and my heart ached for a baby of my own. Luckly for me, my husband is pretty smart and figured out my moment of sadness. He held me while I cried for a little bit and then we went on with our day. Just for the record, they are two of the cutest baby girls ever. It wasnt jealousy or a 'why them?' moment. It was more of a 'why not me too?' moment. Anyway I got over it.

I had a great week off and look forward to putting up our tree this weekend!!

Oh yeah by the way GIG 'EM AGGIES!!!!!!!! SAW 'EM OFF!!!!

AGGIES 12

TEXAS 07

Special Gift

Aunt Linda gave us this very special Santa. First of all, he is Mexican. Aunt Linda bought it in Tijuana, Mexico many years ago. Secondly, its about 30 some odd years old. He has been very well taken care of at Aunt Linda & Uncle Mike's house, now he has a very special place in our home. It was passed down to us and we will make sure to take good care of him. We know he comes with alot of love.

Thanks Aunt Linda!!!!

Happy Turkey Day!!!

Vacation

Ah...sweet vacation. I am on vacation this week and enjoying every minute of it. So far I have had lunch with some people from my old job, been shopping, had my hair cut, slept, and watched movies. At this moment I am watching Pride & Prejudice for the second time. Tomorrow my sister-in-law and I are taking the baby to see Santa. Exciting stuff!

I am also waiting for the realtor to come and see about our house. We are probably going to put it on the market this week. Wish us luck. There is not much progress on our new house yet but I am sure they will be moving quickly on it soon.

On the other hand, I am a little sad on the baby department. I had hoped that we would be celebrating Christmas as a family of 3. Oh well, I am sure Larry and I will enjoy what will hopefully be our last Christmas just the two of us.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!

Good Mail Day

This was in our mailbox the other day. We are now approved by the United States of America to adopt a foreign born child. It only took us 6 months to get it lol Now we just need to find the kiddo. At least we are moving forward, slowly but surely

Negative

As I thought, the test was negative. It really wasnt a big suprise. Now I started provera to induce a cycle then I call back when that happens.

A Song for Munchkin

This is a song from us to munchkin (Its from Aladdin):

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess (or prince) , now when did
you last let your heart decide

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways, and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I’m in a whole new world
With you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you.

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath- it gets better
I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red letter

I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare, let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

Ver 2
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment gets better

To Tes or Not To Test

Yup that is the question. If you look at the ladder above it shows that I am on day 57+ of my cycle. The last two cycles have been 42 days or so long each and we were hoping that I was getting more regular. I dont think I am pregnant as I feel fine and have no signs of sickness or tiredness. Yet that tiny ray of excitement is creeping up. So I can keep my ray and live in denial or I can just go ahead and take the test to make sure its negative and call the doctor. I've been putting it off but I guess I better deal with it. We will probably go to the store tomorrow to get a test then get the guts up to try it. Even though I expect it to be negative, my heart still aches when I actually know for sure it is.

Anyway I will probably call the doctor sometime next week. He will give me something to start my cycle then I will do Clomid and some other medicine and see how that goes.

Pity Party

I am throwing a pity party for myself today. I am lonely. Larry is gone yet again. This will be the 3rd week in a 4 week period. Before that it was another few weeks. I hate coming home to an empty house. I hate sleeping in an empty bed. Basically I just hate being alone at night. It doesnt help that I am afraid of the dark. It also doesnt seem to help that there is no end in sight.

I love my husband more than anything and maybe that is what makes it harder. My dad was always working and when Larry and I were talking marriage this is one of the things that I was very firm on. I was not going to get married just to be alone and yet this is what seems to be happening. We have talked circles around this issue and there is not much we can do. It is part of his job and I just have to learn to live with it. He doesnt like it any more than I do. He hates being away but what are we to do. It wasnt supposed to be part of his job. He left a job that had him traveling more and took a pay cut yet it seems that it didnt make a difference.

Also sometimes I think that maybe this is why God hasnt given us a child. Maybe its because this isnt the life that we would want for that child. We want the life were daddy is home to play and be soccer coach, not the life where we wait for his plane to come in.

Just needed to vent

Almost ready to start

As previously posted, we are building a new house. This is where it will sit.

I love this picture. Its really cool. This is the stake that marks our property line.

The neighborhood we are moving into is very family friendly. There are alot of kids and the neighborhood is safe. The house is also kid friendly and very spacious for all those things that babies bring with them.

Now all we need is a baby or a couple babies. Hopefully we wont have a big empty house for too long. I really really hope its not too much longer.