I am not used to being at home so I am kinda bored and borrowing things from other peoples blogs lol. I borrowed this from here :)
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I'm back at home after the IUI this morning. It went well, I think. I dropped of the stuff this morning at 9am, spend an hour at Barnes.nNobles, picked up L from work, drove to the clinic, had a 1030 appt for the IUI, was done by 11, went to lunch, dropped L off and am now at home doing nothing.
Ls numbers were okay, I think
15.2 million
85% motility
2.5 grade
(this is post wash)
I think the timing was good. I was having some major stabbing pain this morning that has tapered to major aching so hopefully these were ovulation pains. The doc seems to think so.
So now we wait. Two very long weeks.
I want to remain positive but not get my hopes too high.
Today L and I drove the 30-40min to the clinic to get another ultrasound and bloodwoork. My follicles and lining looked great. I now have a 18 & a 17 on the left and two 17s on the right. The lining is at 8.5 A. The nurse said it looked great. So tonight at 10pm I am doing the hsg shot and monday morning is our IUI.
I had already signed all the disclaimer for ovulation induction and IUI at the beginning of the cycle but the nurse gave us the multiples disclaimer again. Obviously our chances for multiples increases with the number of follicles we have.
We are excited to be at this stage after the slow start we had.
I've decided that I am going to post a "foto" post every friday. This will be sort of like a summary of the week in pictures. I love pictures.
Here is our house on Hallo.ween night. Can you see L on the rocker? lol
This is me in my Hallo.ween costume. L and I sat outside giving out candy for a little while. I also sneaked in one or two. :)
I came home today and found this unexpected package. I had a couple of emotionally rough days this week. One which included some crying on the phone to my sister. So today I get this box from her and I loved it. Thanks Sis, Love ya!!
This is my stockpile of medical stuff. I am trying to keep it nice and organized and this is one of the places I found to do it.
Earlier this week I had to order meno.pur from Sch.raf.ts. This is included in their paperwork. Weird but cute.
Now on to a cycle update. Today I had another us and bloodwork. My ovaries have decided to wake up now. Slowly but surely. I have 1-14ish, 1-13ish, 1-12ish and a bunch of little ones. We are happy with that progress and glad that something is growing. Of course not everything can go smoothly. I have another us tomorrow morning because my estrogen (?) went up over 1200, which from what I gather is not what we want. So I started with Gani.re.lix. today. I had a little trouble with that shot but got it in nonetheless. Apparently my doctor is afraid I might ovulate on my own before its time. Isnt that ironic. I have spend 2.5 years trying to ovulate on my own and now that I dont want to (timing for IUI) it might happen. lol "Isnt it ironic? Dont you think?"
Ok so I will try to update tomorrow.
No that is not a perfect 10, thats the size of my biggest follicle. I am beyond disappointed in the way the stims are going or rather not going. I have the 10 and a lot of 9s and 8s. There wasnt much change from sat to today which sucks. I think the 10 was an 8 on sat which means its not even growing a mm a day. blah!
So 3 more days of meno.pur and another ultrasound on friday. I went ahead and ordered 5 days of meno because I am sure I will need it.
We decided to carve a pumkin today. This was our first pumpkin carving event and I must say it was cool. Here's a before picture of our pumpkin:
This is the kind of concentration you need when carving pumpkins lol:
Tada!!! This is our finished product:
Since I am a fre.ak about burning down the house, I have to go buy batteries for the light that goes inside of it.
Thats how many good follicles I have. I had my ultrasound today and had a bunch of immature little f&8#$#s. I think the biggest one was around 8mm which is really nothing. I was/am extremely dissapointment. I feel like we are moving backwards instead of forward. I now will take 1.5 meno.pur. for 3 days and go for another ultrasound on tues. I hope by then I have something worthy.
So now I am at home and hiding from the world, I am unsure when I will come out of hiding.
I popped my injetable che.rry today. I must say that I did freak out a little bit. We had a little problem with the set up and then all the prepping was done for the actual show. I kinda panicked a little. I was scared because I dint know how much pressure to use. So heres a picture of the actual moment.
L was my cheerleader and according to him, at first I froze and then I almost hyperventilated. So he starts bribing me lol First he offered me ice cream. Then he said books. Because I was a big girl and was able to give myself the injection, I got these two.
I think tomorrow will go smoothly.
I finished the clomid today and will start meno.pur tomorrow. To say that I am scared is an understatement. Besides the physical part of giving the shot, I am scared of what this means. To me this is so much more than just taking the clomid. This means that I really am infertile and need help.
I am also scared of the hope that this cycle brings. Although I have tried hard and keep trying to tell myself that this might not work. My heart is filled with hope that this will be our "cure".
Okay this time we really are off and running. I had my ultra sound today and passed. No cysts! I am starting clomid today for 5 days then men.opur, for 3 days and an ultra sound next sat am. So I am hoping! Hoping that this is a step in the right direction for us
I will try to give myself the shots and hopefully I dont chicken out. Haha
So AF showed today and I have an US. scheduled for tomorrow. I am thinking that the cyst is still there because I am feeling pain on my right side which is the same as last month.
Today I have a headache, cramps, my period, and I am just exhausted so I am going to get my heating pad and my pjs and go night night.
Come out come out wherever you are. I am on the white pills of my bcp pack and ready for AF to get here. I am ready to start although I think I will still have that cyst in there. I really hope not because I am going insane standing in the sidelines.
Its funny that I keep checking the tp for any little sign on redness to signal her arrival.
I currently have a job in the early childhood education industry, in the management side. I love my job and it doesn't really affect me to be around all the kids. I like it. The one thing missing is that I don't have an early childhood background. I am actually a business major and all my experience is in that area.
So I am taking some courses through the local technical college. This semester I am taking one class. Today the teacher looks around the room and says "So everyone here has or has had children, as in children of your own, except for..." this is when she looks directly at me and say "...you, right?"
Do I have a sign on my forehead that says "childless person over here" right next to the one that says "punch me in the gut"? Do I not look like mother material? Needless to say I didn't say much the rest of the class. I felt like the outsider that I am. No I don't have children, No I cant tell you much about raising children. And that hurts. That hurts a lot because I so want to experience that.
I am not liking being on the sideline this month. I want to join the game!!!
I did The Happiness Challenge this month. My challenge was to play with my camera/photo stuff at least once a week. I think I did pretty good. I really like photography and want to get better at it. I am going to look for a class and continue my challenge for next month along with The Second Challenge
Here are some products of my month.
The Swamp - Not really swamp but close enough lol
L walking on the boardwalk
Me practicing my portraits. L is my only willing model 
Rabbit trying to hide
Chicos Tacos. YUUUMMMYY!!
Our new front door buddy!
We have figured out the answer to our fertility problems:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/20959452/wid/11915773?gt1=10412
If L had a deep voice we would have offspring.
Blah!
Some people study the stup.idest things. Come on people! Concentrate on the cure for cancer, the cure for infertility, something I give a rats a.ss. about.
Its kinda like, reving up your car to start a race and then your car dying.
We are now on hold for another month. I have a cyst on my right ovary. Blah. So now I am on birth control for a month. Then another check on the cyst.
I am bummed out. I was ready to start. I was mentally prepared and now that preparedness has disappeared.
I feel like a deflated balloon. :(
Its been a while since I have been so happy for a cycle to start. I am excited about being more proactive toward our ultimate goal.
Tomorrow is my baseline ultrasound appointment.
Those were the words out of the nurses mouth. L's sp.er.m analysis came back higher in motility but still a low number of normal heads. His count is fine. His motility increased from 24% to 46%, they still want it to be above 50%. His normal heads is 13%, they really wanted to be above 30%.
So the doc says that all is well to move forward with IUI.
Tomorrow we leave for El Paso. Yay!!!
