As you can see I havent been on much. I've been laying low as I have alot of thoughts running through my head. I spend the weekend in Texas with Larry visiting my family and enjoying some Texas heat and food. We had a great weekend. So as the title states there is good news, bad news and some unsureness over here.
The Good:
Our papers were received in Mexico. They were all complete and approved. I have to call in two weeks to schedule a meeting with the committee.
The Bad:
We were told it was a two year wait. Yup thats right two years at least. It was said more like 2-4yrs. We never expected that the wait would be that long. I dont understand. There are tons of children sitting in orphanages.
The Unsure:
Do we want to wait at least two years? For all of you that are going thru an adoption journey you know how it is to wait, especially an international adoption. You have to put your life on hold otherwise your paperwork must be resubmitted. We were hoping that once we had munchkin we could look more into the option of moving to Texas. Well if we decide to wait the two years then the opportunity to move will pass us up.
Now here is the kicker, as many of you know we are pursuing adoption because of infertility. I have pcos and problems ovulation. I actually havent been able to ovulate or have a cycle on my own since coming off birthcontrol pills 18 months ago. Even with fertility medicines, I did not produce any eggs. Rather than going into further fertility treatments we decided to go the adoption route. But we were told that at any moment my body could kick back in. It could be a month, a year, 10 years. We just dont know. Well on friday I started my period. The first period that has come on its own in 18 months. So could it be that my body is starting to rise from the dead? We dont know. At this point we have decided that I will go to the doctor and have tests done to see if I am ovulating as well as make an appointment to meet the adoption committee in Mexico.
We honestly just dont know what lays ahead. We hope and pray that God will lead us in the path that He has chosen for us and that we are strong enough to accept this as Gods will. It is much easier for Larry to understand and accept because he has so much faith, I feel that my faith is not as strong. But Larry and I will hang tight.
As always my posts have to have something about signs. While driving around this weekend, I kept hearing the same commercial about ovulation prediction kits. It was actually getting annoying in how often they played that commercial. So is that a sign. I dont know.
Other than that another fun filled week of work and missing Larry. This is hopefully his last week away from home.
Monday, August 07, 2006
The Good, The Bad, and Unsure
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4 comments:
Well this is definately one of those times you are REALLY happy your monthly visitor came. Maybe it was the spicy chicken strips or just the Texas heat. I am wishing you all the best.
Your friend... Gladys
Oh sweetie, I totally understand the emotional ups and downs of dealing with infertility. I know that feeling in your heart when you just don't know what to do. You are in my prayers, and I'm sending you lots of hugs. You know where to find me if you need someone to "talk" to.
I so understand the heart and disappointment of infertility. My husband and I have struggled with it for 4 years now. And we struggled with what we should do, whether it was IVF(our ONLY step) or adoption. We went back and forth for over a year. We would make the decision, stick with it for months then change our minds..to the point that it became a taboo subject. You have to go with your heart and if you follow your heart and what God is trying to lead you to ,you will find peace with your decision. That's what happened for us. Are you able to pursue both since the wait is going to be long. Maybe if you do this, the right path will reveal itself. For my husband and I we FINALLY felt that adoption was the right path,(But mind you it was not an easy decision) but we're not on birth control and its always in the back of our minds. I will be thinking of you and praying that you will know in your heart what the right decision is for you and your husband.
Hi Sandra....WOW....I'm kindof lost for words. On a positive note that is great news that you got your "monthly" friend. I cannot believe the wait times right now to adopt Internationally. What is up?? Your right, there is lots of kids in the orphanages and they arent moving them into families very fast. I can understand a 12 month wait, but 2-4 years??? Maybe you'll be guided down both paths and things will just fall into place!!! My thoughts are with you girl!!! Keep us posted
P.S- I mailed your quilt square last week. Let me know when it arrives.....Take care & keep your chin up!!
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