Its beginning to look alot like Christmas!!!!

One of our Christmas traditions is to pick out a new ornament that represents something especial to us for the year. Last year we did a new home one and so on. This year we chose this one. It is hilarious, we love it. First of all we are geeks. As I type we are laying in bed watching tv and playing on our laptops. We have been known to play games online against each other while sitting on the couch lol. Secondly the two characters on the screen sing and are absolutely hilarious. We turned heads at Hallmark because we were laughing to hard. If you are in Hallmark check it out.

This one we got for the munchkin. Its a very cute winnie the pooh.
These are my new monkey christmas pj pants. They are super comfy and I love them.
Our Thanksgiving was pretty good. We spend it with Larry's family. We had tons and tons of food. We had a good time. I did have a rough moment because there were a couple of babies there and my heart ached for a baby of my own. Luckly for me, my husband is pretty smart and figured out my moment of sadness. He held me while I cried for a little bit and then we went on with our day. Just for the record, they are two of the cutest baby girls ever. It wasnt jealousy or a 'why them?' moment. It was more of a 'why not me too?' moment. Anyway I got over it.

I had a great week off and look forward to putting up our tree this weekend!!

Oh yeah by the way GIG 'EM AGGIES!!!!!!!! SAW 'EM OFF!!!!

AGGIES 12

TEXAS 07

Special Gift

Aunt Linda gave us this very special Santa. First of all, he is Mexican. Aunt Linda bought it in Tijuana, Mexico many years ago. Secondly, its about 30 some odd years old. He has been very well taken care of at Aunt Linda & Uncle Mike's house, now he has a very special place in our home. It was passed down to us and we will make sure to take good care of him. We know he comes with alot of love.

Thanks Aunt Linda!!!!

Happy Turkey Day!!!

Vacation

Ah...sweet vacation. I am on vacation this week and enjoying every minute of it. So far I have had lunch with some people from my old job, been shopping, had my hair cut, slept, and watched movies. At this moment I am watching Pride & Prejudice for the second time. Tomorrow my sister-in-law and I are taking the baby to see Santa. Exciting stuff!

I am also waiting for the realtor to come and see about our house. We are probably going to put it on the market this week. Wish us luck. There is not much progress on our new house yet but I am sure they will be moving quickly on it soon.

On the other hand, I am a little sad on the baby department. I had hoped that we would be celebrating Christmas as a family of 3. Oh well, I am sure Larry and I will enjoy what will hopefully be our last Christmas just the two of us.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!

Good Mail Day

This was in our mailbox the other day. We are now approved by the United States of America to adopt a foreign born child. It only took us 6 months to get it lol Now we just need to find the kiddo. At least we are moving forward, slowly but surely

Negative

As I thought, the test was negative. It really wasnt a big suprise. Now I started provera to induce a cycle then I call back when that happens.

A Song for Munchkin

This is a song from us to munchkin (Its from Aladdin):

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess (or prince) , now when did
you last let your heart decide

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways, and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I’m in a whole new world
With you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you.

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath- it gets better
I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red letter

I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare, let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

Ver 2
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment gets better

To Tes or Not To Test

Yup that is the question. If you look at the ladder above it shows that I am on day 57+ of my cycle. The last two cycles have been 42 days or so long each and we were hoping that I was getting more regular. I dont think I am pregnant as I feel fine and have no signs of sickness or tiredness. Yet that tiny ray of excitement is creeping up. So I can keep my ray and live in denial or I can just go ahead and take the test to make sure its negative and call the doctor. I've been putting it off but I guess I better deal with it. We will probably go to the store tomorrow to get a test then get the guts up to try it. Even though I expect it to be negative, my heart still aches when I actually know for sure it is.

Anyway I will probably call the doctor sometime next week. He will give me something to start my cycle then I will do Clomid and some other medicine and see how that goes.

Pity Party

I am throwing a pity party for myself today. I am lonely. Larry is gone yet again. This will be the 3rd week in a 4 week period. Before that it was another few weeks. I hate coming home to an empty house. I hate sleeping in an empty bed. Basically I just hate being alone at night. It doesnt help that I am afraid of the dark. It also doesnt seem to help that there is no end in sight.

I love my husband more than anything and maybe that is what makes it harder. My dad was always working and when Larry and I were talking marriage this is one of the things that I was very firm on. I was not going to get married just to be alone and yet this is what seems to be happening. We have talked circles around this issue and there is not much we can do. It is part of his job and I just have to learn to live with it. He doesnt like it any more than I do. He hates being away but what are we to do. It wasnt supposed to be part of his job. He left a job that had him traveling more and took a pay cut yet it seems that it didnt make a difference.

Also sometimes I think that maybe this is why God hasnt given us a child. Maybe its because this isnt the life that we would want for that child. We want the life were daddy is home to play and be soccer coach, not the life where we wait for his plane to come in.

Just needed to vent

Almost ready to start

As previously posted, we are building a new house. This is where it will sit.

I love this picture. Its really cool. This is the stake that marks our property line.

The neighborhood we are moving into is very family friendly. There are alot of kids and the neighborhood is safe. The house is also kid friendly and very spacious for all those things that babies bring with them.

Now all we need is a baby or a couple babies. Hopefully we wont have a big empty house for too long. I really really hope its not too much longer.

Want what you dont have?

Do people always want what they dont have? I think so at least some people do. It is insane the amount of times I have heard "just enjoy your life without children". Does this mean that when you have children your life sucks? I dont know since I dont have one. But it makes me mad that this same words are spoken by someone who is holding their little one in their arms or just finished telling me about some great thing their kid did.

Yes I am only 25 years old, but I have done what I want to do without a baby and now I am ready for a new stage of my life. Some people are not ready for this stage until they are 30 or 33 or 22 or 23, the fact is that I am. I am ready to be a family of more than two, I am ready to have my life revolve around the life of my baby. So dont tell me 'just relax' or 'maybe its fate' or any of that bull because I just dont want to hear it. As a matter of fact I dont really want to talk about it with anyone at this point. I just want my baby

Faith

I bought this bracelet over the weekend. Its to help me remember that I have to have faith. Faith that a baby is part of our future. Faith that if this is not so that we will be able to survive and keeping on going.

News

We got news! Although not all positive even knowing that our paperwork is being looked at is good news at this point. So our case is being reviewed and we basically got moved to the 'incomplete' pile. This is what needs to be resent:
-new employment letters
-new reference letters
-signatures on the translations
-something about the birth certificates and marriage license

I have already started working on that stuff. Then we are waiting for Larrys fingerprint appointment and that elusive INS approval. There is hope.

On a funny note, you know that you have a desperate/hard situation when Maw-Maw needs to change saints because the first one couldnt quite cover it. lol We are past St Gerard and have moved on to St Gianna. lol

New Home

We are moving! Yup we are buying a new house. Its in an awesome family friendly neighborhood. Its alot bigger than are current house and closer to the interstate. It will be about a 5 minute commute for Larry and a 35 minutes commute for me. We are super excited about it. Its new construction so it will be done around March-April. This is the floorplan we picked:

Another one bites the dust

The doctor's office called this morning. Another non ovulatory cycle. I dont know if I am not ovulating at all or just ovulating really late in the cycle. Either way its not normal. So after I start my cycle I will be taking clomid and another drug that starts with a d. Hopefullly this will do the trick. I did get a copy of my bloodwork results just so I could play doctor and look up some stuff on the net. I have yet to get to that, its on my to do mountain.

On other news, I think we found a house. It will be new construction and we know where it will be. Larry and I are still negotiating about which floor plan it will be. Its a tough negotiation between the two of us. We have to figure it out by Sat which is when we will go meet with the builder.

Adios for now

More Pictures

From most of my posts you can tell who carries the camera lol So I let Larry take a picture of me so he could stop pouting.
Then I took the camera back. This is Larry with a monkey mask. He looks so funny. It suits him though lolThis is something we bought for the munchkin. Its a monkey backpack. I love it.

So that was our day today. It was fun. We also went looking at some houses. There are some good prospects.

Pictures

Just to update you all, I am feeling all better from the accident the other night. Not too much soreness anymore. The car is okay. We probably wont get the bumps fixed because its just not worth it at this point. We'll see.

Today we had a wonderful day. Larry had to DJ a corporate party today at the zoo so I tagged along. It was a beautiful day. Here are some cool pics from today.

This is a typical New Orleans brass band. They are kinda cool:

This is Larry with the sea monster:

This is one of my cool buddies, the orungatan (sp?): I think this is the coolest picture. Its a White Alligator. Yes its alive. You can see him through his glass tank
This is one of the tragedies of Hurricane Katrina. Tony the Hippo died because of the hurricane. We are hoping they will bring another hippo soon.

More pictures to come...

Shitty Shitty Day

My day sucked. There is no better way to put it. It started this morning when I woke up lonely because Larry was out of town. Added to that I woke up late. Then I went to get in the shower and saw this huge cockroach. I hate cockroaches. I drowned it, then smashed it, then threw it in the trash can. Ok then I had to attend a training all day long. I just dont like sitting down for long periods of time. I need to move around alot. I had school this evening so that was another 3 hrs of sitting.

So up to then it doesnt sound too bad. Then on my way home from school something happens that I end up here:

Yup the ER. I take the back road to my house. Its a pretty busy two lane road. Tonight, I am driving along, talking to my dad on the cell phone (hands free device been used). Out of nowhere I see this dog running onto said road. Of course you probably know what happens next. I swerved to avoid the f****ng dog and lost control of my car. I spun various times ended up in the barricade.

Since I am writing this obviously I am okay. I am banged up and will probably hurt like hell tomorrow. My car is also banged up but fixable.

Getting sleepy now. Will update later.

Summary

Okay so apparently our life has been busy. The other day we finally got a chance to go to dinner with my mother-in-law (this used to be an almost daily occurance). Its been a while. So as we are eating she's like "So, whats up with you guys? People have been asking me..." As an aside, Larry's family is very close and know all about our journey to become parents. We dont really mind that they know. We have just been really busy and haven't seen them in a while.

So back to the question. Whats up with us? Well I guess I would say not much. I will give a brief summary for those reading.
On the adoption front, Larry's fingerprints got rejected by INS so he has to redo them on Oct 27th. Also the political instability in Mexico is only getting worse. We are starting to accept the fact that the wait for a baby will be longer than we ever dreamed. It saddens us that this is the case since there are so many children in need there.
On the baby making front, my bloodwork came back normal. Which just means that what was tested is not the problem. I am on a roll with 2 cycles on my own so that is just a wait and see thing.

Basically right now we are just waiting. There is just not much we can do. We enjoy being with each other and spoiling our nephews and niece. I work and go to school and keep myself relatively busy. Oh yeah we are also looking at moving to a new house. Yes this would be our 4th move I think lol We are hoping to move closer to my work. We are talking about it.

This is our life at the moment

Lucky

I am a very lucky person. One of the good points of my marriage besides having a wonderful husband is that fact that I have great in-laws. They are great people and we get along very well. We get together with Larrys family alot and usually have a great time.

Today I got home and this was waiting for me:
Yup a Curious George cookie. Isn't it cool? My mothe- and sister-in-law went to the bakery and saw this so they bought it for me. Gotta Love Them

Now should I eat it or save it? lol