Lucky

I am a very lucky person. One of the good points of my marriage besides having a wonderful husband is that fact that I have great in-laws. They are great people and we get along very well. We get together with Larrys family alot and usually have a great time.

Today I got home and this was waiting for me:
Yup a Curious George cookie. Isn't it cool? My mothe- and sister-in-law went to the bakery and saw this so they bought it for me. Gotta Love Them

Now should I eat it or save it? lol

Gloominess

Yes its that kind of day today. Its gloomy and rainy and not making me feel happy. It started early this morning before going to church. This morning we had to go to the dump first thing. It stunk. It was so awfully gross. Then we go to the bakery and my muffin was not good. I didnt like it. So then comes church. If you really know me, you know that it was only after I got married that I started going to church every sunday. I didnt grow up in the church so dont feel the need to go every sunday. Larry on the other hand did grow up in the church and feels the need to go every sunday. I feel that its my duty as his wife to go together. Sometimes I enjoy it, sometimes I dont care, and sometimes it makes me sad.

Today was a sad day. The homily/sermon was about being a good mommy/daddy. My question is when am I going to get to be a mommy. Will I ever hear the sound of someone screaming "Moooommmmy". So while he is going on and on about whats a good mommy, blah blah blah, I get sadder and sadder. I think I can be a good mommy so my question is WHEN DO I GET TO BE A MOMMY? Thats what I want to know

Oh yeah and immigration rejected Larry's fingerprints so he has to get them redone a month from now. Isnt that just great

Update on the bloodwork. The nurse said that all my test came back within the normal range which means that at least we can say that those are not the cause of my problems. So another blood test to check for ovulation later this month. We shall see what happens.

Bad Blogger

Okay I am a bad blogger. I was doing so well and then I got swamped. Between work and school and home and all that, I just have enough time to check email and jump into bed. Its fun though. The job is going great and school is going well. I have certainly been busy though.

On the baby front, I had some blood work done on Monday. The nurse called today and said everything came back normal. What does this mean? I have no idea lol She called in between meetings so I didnt have much time to talk. I will call her again to see what that means. I was also supposed to try clomid again this month but I forgot to ask her about that too. It was a busy day today. But tomorrow is friday! Yay!

Life Is Good

Two In A Row

If you look right above this post you will see one of my tickers. Today its on cycle day 1. Yup thats right, I started another cycle on my own. Oh I wonder if it could be, could I finally be getting regular? That would be awesome. I'll be getting some bloodwork done on monday.

But with everyone of these cycles. I have horrible PMS. Just ask Larry:) He usually bears the brunt of it all. I can actually feel my mood swings come and go. Its kinda creepy. Lucky for me he is a wonderful man and tries to understand that I cant control most of it.

Adding to my PMS is the fact that Larry has been working like a madman. Tomorrow will be his 7th day in a row working. I get lonely. I dont ever remember lonely like this. But with him working so much, my new job and school I am really missing my husband. Hopefully it will all calm down soon and we can spend some quality time together.

Survived

I survived my first week at my new job. I love it. I absolutely love it. I have lots and lots of work but it keeps me busy and its good work. Now hopefully a relaxing weekend lies ahead.

Food for Thought

As many of you know, I now manage a Head Start center. The center has kiddos from 0-5. I was talking to my sister the other day and shes like 'I bet it will be hard for you being around the kiddos'. I must say it really isnt. The youngest is 6 months and the oldest is almost 5. We are getting a couple baby babies so that should be cool. I really like my new job and I enjoy playing with the kiddos when I get a chance. Today I ran into this quote and I think this is why I am so relaxed about all this:

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.-Jeremiah 29:11

I will take that to bed with me tonight.

Landfall

The storm has definitely made landfall. My new job is really cool. I like it so far. I have alot of responsibilities and tons of paperwork. Other than a trip to the ER for a little one's smashed finger (I really could have lived without that). It was an eventfull first day to say the least. The people are awesome and the kiddos are cute. I really think I will like it here. At least I hope I do. The only thing that sucks a little is that I go in at 730am and I am not a very good morning person. I better get used to it now. lol We shall see how the rest of the week goes.

The Calm Before The Storm

Tomorrow I start my new job. I am nervous but excited. I really think I am going to love it. I'll be really busy though. Wish me luck!

To relax, we bought this cool rocker. It was 40 bucks at Wal-Mart (I've never gotten something 50% off at Wal-Mart lol). Here's Larry taking a rest after the tough job of putting the chair together.
And here is Larry having what looks like a very serious conversation with Max. I wonder what they were discussing lol.
Are you wondering why I didnt get a picture on our brand new chair? Well its about 1000% humidity today so I was out there for about 30 seconds. Just long enough to snap a photo. Than back to the A/C for me. This humidity sucks.

Political Instability

I am very sad to see the political stability happening in Mexico. As sad as I am for us and what this means for our adoption plans. I am even more sad for the people of Mexico. This political turmoil keeps the people of Mexico from getting better services that they are entitled to. I really hope that the politicians stop to think about what this does to the people they are supposed to be representing.

What this does to our adoption plans? I do not know. Nobody really knows. All we can do is wait. We are getting rather good at waiting lol Gotta have faith I guess.

By the way, if you look on the bottom left hand corner of the page you can see that my counter has surpassed 1000 hits. Yay! Most of them are probably from me reloading the page to see how far along my counter is lol. So I know that somebody out there is looking at this page so leave me a message. It makes me feel special. You dont have to have a blogger account :)

Also this is my 50th post. As weird as it may sound this is a good outlet for me. Its very good therapy. I try to post my goods and my bads. If you are reading, I hope you are enjoying my life story lol

Good Relaxing Weekend

We had an awesome relaxing weekend at the coast for the most part. We were sad to see the devastation of Hurricane Katrina, even after a year rebuilding is nowhere near beginning. We hope to see the area return to its pre hurricane splendor.

On to the awesome relaxing weekend stuff. We stayed at the Beau Rivage, it was really cool. We were on the 21st floor and had a very nice view of the gulf. Here is a picture of our hotel at night:
Here is a view of the Gulf of Mexico from our hotel room. Its no ocean but its still cool.
And here we are walking on the dock by the beach. A really nice lady from Texas took our picture. It was a little cloudy and rainy but we survived.
Oh yeah we lost $7 at the casino. Big spenders we are.

On the way home we stopped at the outlet mall to do some shopping. It was some nice retail therapy. So I am ready for my last week at my current job and to start the adventure of my new job.

Life is good...

Yay for Long Weekends

I so needed this long weekend. I had originally planned to take fri-tues off but today I had to go to new employee orientation and I have to go again on tues. I still have the day off on monday. Tomorrow Larry has to work and I have some homework to do that I will do while he is working. Then on Sunday we are leaving to go here. I am so excited! I have never seen the Gulf of Mexico. It should be fun. I will make sure to take lots of pictures. Have a great weekend everyone!

Some Cool Stuff

I got this in the mail today. The key chain says "God Bless The Flad Family". Yes I see it as a sign. I see it all as sign. It was one of those things were they send you something and ask for money. I might send them 20 bucks. We can use all the help we need lol


This I found at Barnes & Nobles. Its a monkey planner. I love it. It includes a monkey eraser and monkey writing pad. Its cool :)


Gotta go to school.

Bad News and Good News

I'll tell you the bad news first. I am still not ovulating. Yup that sucks. My progestrone level was 0.5 this cycle and they like to see it at over 15. I am disappointed but not really heartbroken. I kinda knew I still wasnt. I really like my new doctor though and I love the nurse. She is the coolest. So I will hopefully finish this cycle on my own. I then the plan is to get some baseline bloodwork done. This will be the whole shabang of bloodwork. I havent had that done since 2003 before getting of bloodwork. Hopefully that will give a glimpse into what is going on. Then I will try clomid at 50mg to see if that works. So thats the plan for that. I'm okay with this and thats because of the following good news.

I have a NEW JOB! Yay I am so very excited. I am sad to leave my old job but I dont think it was enough of a challenge, on most days, for me. I new job is a huge professional step up for me and I am looking forward to the new challenge. I am the new center director for a migrant headstart. What is that? A migrant headstart serves the children of migrant (seasonal)/low income family. It is mainly a hispanic population. As some of you know, my parents immigrated from Mexico. They came to this country with basic education and no english. As children we were low income, I was the kid getting on the bus to go to headstart. My parents were also migrant workers. They worked the fields and all sorts of manual labor. So this position for me and my family is like coming full circle. Now I have the opportunity to help these families transition and succeed. I am really super excited about it. Another perk is that because my center serves children 0-4yrs, the munchkin can come to work with me. Yay! This solves the daycare dilema working mommies face. Oh yeah I'll be making more money too lol

Anyway this is a transition time for us. Although I would be over the moon if we got munchkin now, I am okay with the delay (not happy about it but okay). This will give me time to settle into my new job and all that. So alot is going on right now in our lives. We are going to start looking for a house closer to my job. We wont buy just yet until we see if this job is going to be a nice fit for us.

Please go over and congratulate Mary-Mia & Rod on their double blessings.

Just Another Rainy Day

Yup when you live in south Louisiana you get used to rainy days. Its been raining here for days and days. Its getting kind of old. Right now we are just sitting around watching NASCAR and checking up on Ernesto. It will suck if it comes this way. Larry leaves on monday so that means Max and I would have to evacuate on our own. I have never evacuated on my own. But hopefully it will not come here. Its sad that everyone prays that it hits someone else. I guess thats just the way things work around here. Not much else to report. Have a great weekend

Not much to report

The title says it all. There is not much to report here. We are just chugging along. I started school yesterday. Its cool. I am taking a finance class, an accounting class, and a communications class. I go to school two evenings a week and take one over the internet. There is only 11 classes in the program and these are number 5,6, and 7. So slowly but surely I will get that degree. So far I have a 4.0 but dont know how much longer that will last. My finance class is cool, the professor went to Texas A&M so thats awesome. Not many aggies out here. Wish me luck.

On the home front, I am still holding down the fort alone as Larry is out of town yet again. Such is life I guess. We are thinking of taking a trip to see my parents soon. We are still in the thinking phase. Also I think I am coming down with something. My throat hurts and I am starting to sound weird. Better hit the OJ.

On the baby front, we are waiting. Yup still waiting. I am making myself comfortable for a loooong wait lol I think I have come to terms with it. Like I said earlier, such is life. Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment to do some bloodwork. We shall see what the results are. I am drinking this tea I bought in Mexico. Its nasty but if it works I'll drink it. I'll post the bloodwork results once I get them so you can all overanalyze with me.

Have a great one.

Cool Stuff

Our friend Courtney is an audiologist. Since Larry is in the sound business, she is getting some custom made earplugs for him. Thanks, Courtney!(I know you ready this so leave us a message) Today we met Courtney to get a mold of Larry's ears. She could only do one ear today because his other one is too full of wax lol. I knew he had a listening problem lol j/k. Anyway heres what happened:

In this one, she is shooting the putty into his ear. Dont worry she really does know what she is doing :)

Here is what his ear looks like with all the stuff in it.
And here is the mold of his ear.

We thought it was really cool. We also got to play with her ear magnifier thingy. Larrys ears are so gross lol

Today we also went to see the movie 'World Trade Center'. It was really sad. I cried.

Other than that not much going on. Having a nice relaxing saturday.

Bound to Happen

Something like this was bound to happen sooner or later:
This girl comes up to me and rubs my stomach thinking the I was
pregnant :( She makes a remark about it. I had to tell her that no I am not pregnant just fat. That totally did not make my day. It made me sad.

So I am not the skinniest girl on the block but I am not really fat. I have a tummy, its part beer belly from college lol and part pcos. Its also part 'I like to eat and not exercise'. But I think this is what I needed to give me that push. I will start exercising in the morning. Please encourage me to keep going. Cant let this happen again.

Bad Blogger

Ok I've been a bad blogger. I'm in a funk. I think its because Larry has been gone so much. We have been married 2.5 years together for over 3 years and this is the longest we have been apart. I miss him. Its also the limbo thing I think. Blah... but all there is to do is focus on living life. Work kinda stinks too, lots of change going on. I dont like it much, but gotta pay the bills.

So I spend as much time as I can with our niece Laura, she's about 6 months now and a cutie. (I will ask Laura's mommy if I can post a picture of her on here) I am feeling more and more comfortable around babies since Laura was born. I actually gave her a bath today (with my mother-in-law's help lol) she was a squirmy little thing lol

Also I start school next week. I will be taking 3 classes. Yup you read that right. I work full time and will be taking 9 hours of classes. Oh yeah and somehow trying to get a baby somehow, someway. lol Wish me luck.

Lost

I was talking to a friend of mine today and the 'whats up with the two year wait thing?' My answer to that is I dont know. I wont know for a while I guess. I am also starting the whole ovulation predictor thing this month. We will see how that goes. I kinda feel lost. Sort of like when you are in a busy mall and you just stand there looking around because you dont know which way your store is, while people are passing you by. Do I go down that wing or that other wing? To the right or to the left? So I think I will just stand here and wait for a sign. Yup thats what I will do. I am confident that the right path will be revealed.

Other than that, Larry is still out of town hopefully just a few more days. I have lots and lots of work and I start school in 2 weeks. Exciting life I lead lol Right now I am trying to decide between eating chocolate pudding or oreo cookies. These is about the biggest decision I plan to make for a while. lol

Oh yeah, thanks to all who left comments on my last post. Its nice to know that others have been where I am at. Thanks

The Good, The Bad, and Unsure

As you can see I havent been on much. I've been laying low as I have alot of thoughts running through my head. I spend the weekend in Texas with Larry visiting my family and enjoying some Texas heat and food. We had a great weekend. So as the title states there is good news, bad news and some unsureness over here.

The Good:
Our papers were received in Mexico. They were all complete and approved. I have to call in two weeks to schedule a meeting with the committee.

The Bad:
We were told it was a two year wait. Yup thats right two years at least. It was said more like 2-4yrs. We never expected that the wait would be that long. I dont understand. There are tons of children sitting in orphanages.

The Unsure:
Do we want to wait at least two years? For all of you that are going thru an adoption journey you know how it is to wait, especially an international adoption. You have to put your life on hold otherwise your paperwork must be resubmitted. We were hoping that once we had munchkin we could look more into the option of moving to Texas. Well if we decide to wait the two years then the opportunity to move will pass us up.

Now here is the kicker, as many of you know we are pursuing adoption because of infertility. I have pcos and problems ovulation. I actually havent been able to ovulate or have a cycle on my own since coming off birthcontrol pills 18 months ago. Even with fertility medicines, I did not produce any eggs. Rather than going into further fertility treatments we decided to go the adoption route. But we were told that at any moment my body could kick back in. It could be a month, a year, 10 years. We just dont know. Well on friday I started my period. The first period that has come on its own in 18 months. So could it be that my body is starting to rise from the dead? We dont know. At this point we have decided that I will go to the doctor and have tests done to see if I am ovulating as well as make an appointment to meet the adoption committee in Mexico.

We honestly just dont know what lays ahead. We hope and pray that God will lead us in the path that He has chosen for us and that we are strong enough to accept this as Gods will. It is much easier for Larry to understand and accept because he has so much faith, I feel that my faith is not as strong. But Larry and I will hang tight.

As always my posts have to have something about signs. While driving around this weekend, I kept hearing the same commercial about ovulation prediction kits. It was actually getting annoying in how often they played that commercial. So is that a sign. I dont know.

Other than that another fun filled week of work and missing Larry. This is hopefully his last week away from home.